I don’t know about you, but for me embracing my strengths has been a battle. I take for granted my God given talents and insanely continue to look at the things that are most difficult for me. I have justified in my head that it is good to look at things I am not good at so I can strive to get better. That is a tricky statement! As an athlete, I want to continue to push myself and get stronger and faster. I want to learn new things and continue grow and blossom into the athlete I strive to be. The problem I am realizing is that the majority of us cannot and will not be good at everything we try to do. Continually looking at the things I struggle with deflate me emotionally and physically. It puts me in a state of comparing myself to the athletes that are great at the things I am not. WHY continue to beat myself up when I could be filling myself with positive more uplifting things. I am NOT saying I should stop trying to get stronger and faster. I am just saying I need to look at the things that come naturally for me and build on that.
It took me a year of battling myself and convincing myself that if I trained hard enough I could be great at anything I set before me only to find myself falling short. Again, I was feeling deflated and torn. I don’t know what switched in my thinking but I became O.K. with the fact that I was never going to be a fast hill climber. I became O.K with not being able to keep a hummingbird pace with my legs while trying to get up that long steep hill. I became O.K with ME! I finally started to believe what my coach Julie had been telling me all along. I am strong and powerful. I can use my strengths and set myself up for success in my races. It’s O.K to set my cadence that works for my body, my strengths.
As I approach my 2nd year of racing, I am excited to have a renewed mind and heart. I feel blessed to have the strengths I do and I look forward to a year of building on the foundation I was blessed with. It will be a year of embracing all my strengths God gave me and being happy right where I am!
Thanks Coach Julie for always believing in me and encouraging me,